keeping up to date

[topaz]

Some reasons why I don't keep my journal up to date:

I don't make time for it because, internally, I don't consider it a high priority. Maybe it isn't, and yet I manage to find time to do lots of other things that are probably less fulfilling. (This is true of so much in my life that it's clearly a more fundamental problem.)

I've never been able to get past the narcissistic aspect of it. That probably sounds strange, but I've always assumed that unless proven otherwise, people don't care much about me. Probably a leftover coping mechanism from high school. It actually surprised me when a couple of friends gently prodded me recently about keeping up to date -- in a way it hadn't occurred to me that they'd *want* me to.

Most of the things that happen in my life don't seem interesting enough to journal. That might be, but who am I to judge? :-)

Anyway, I suppose this is my New Year's Resolution, or something like it, to try to keep in better touch with my friends.

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[harimad.livejournal.com]

It's not my intention to put pressure on you, but I do check my friends' journals daily -- including yours. I should fess up, though, that I don't keep one of my own. Not out of anti-narcissism (very hard to spell right without glasses on) but out of an overdeveloped sense of privacy.