keeping up to date
May. 31st, 2003 02:15 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
topazSome reasons why I don't keep my journal up to date:
I don't make time for it because, internally, I don't consider it a high priority. Maybe it isn't, and yet I manage to find time to do lots of other things that are probably less fulfilling. (This is true of so much in my life that it's clearly a more fundamental problem.)
I've never been able to get past the narcissistic aspect of it. That probably sounds strange, but I've always assumed that unless proven otherwise, people don't care much about me. Probably a leftover coping mechanism from high school. It actually surprised me when a couple of friends gently prodded me recently about keeping up to date -- in a way it hadn't occurred to me that they'd *want* me to.
Most of the things that happen in my life don't seem interesting enough to journal. That might be, but who am I to judge? :-)
Anyway, I suppose this is my New Year's Resolution, or something like it, to try to keep in better touch with my friends.
I don't make time for it because, internally, I don't consider it a high priority. Maybe it isn't, and yet I manage to find time to do lots of other things that are probably less fulfilling. (This is true of so much in my life that it's clearly a more fundamental problem.)
I've never been able to get past the narcissistic aspect of it. That probably sounds strange, but I've always assumed that unless proven otherwise, people don't care much about me. Probably a leftover coping mechanism from high school. It actually surprised me when a couple of friends gently prodded me recently about keeping up to date -- in a way it hadn't occurred to me that they'd *want* me to.
Most of the things that happen in my life don't seem interesting enough to journal. That might be, but who am I to judge? :-)
Anyway, I suppose this is my New Year's Resolution, or something like it, to try to keep in better touch with my friends.
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Date: 2003-06-02 09:51 am (UTC)I write to remember, so I like to write about things like seeing a 2-3 year old run, and how his arms were just flapping there, like they do until they get older and do soemthing with their hands. Or about a clerk who smiled and made me happy. *shrug* I'm weird.
Besides, you have a lot to be narcissitic about. But that's my opinion, and I don't know you all that well.